For years, I buried the shame of living a double life. The terrifying talent of a pathological liar is to be so absolutely sure that our lies are the truth, that we forget what the truth actually is. I was stuck in a dark web that included Hollywood, sex work, Instagram, plastic surgery, and psychiatric wards. Meanwhile, I was pretending to be happy, successful, and even influential. It. Was. A. Lie.
After many years of living lies - lies that I had masterfully convinced myself were the truth - the scariest part of writing this book was knowing I would have to tell the real truth, the whole way through. I had to face every fake and dishonest part of me, and shed the skin of my past - not knowing what would happen, and not knowing if, or how, I would heal.
Can I Be Honest? is my gift to myself and to you. Not just so I can come clean, but so that you, too, can excavate your shame, accept and even love the darkness of your past, and move forward with clarity and confidence. Today, I am a fiercely devoted woman - to truth, to love, to kindness, to full expression - and most importantly, to living freely and authentically in my body. It's not an easy path, but it's worth it - and my hope is that this book will free you, too.